sangeletic

I really don’t know how I continue this roller coaster ride in my life!  You would think I would be sick of it!~  I know how to lose weight, I have done it!  I saw something in a magazine the other day…You don’t need a diet, you need momentum…This was aimed at weight watchers I believe, yet it meant the worl d to me!  IT IS SO TRUE!  I need the will power and momentum, Ok,….For those of you who don’t know me…I was fat as a teenager, 185 lbs…lost down to 135 met my hubby…2 years later got pregnant, had my daughter, went up to 200lbs…said i would die if I hit 200!  I DID…hit 200, I didn’t die, just felt terrible…had no desire to lose the weight until 4 years later…lost down to 145…got pregnant again, had my son, went up to 215!  Ughhh so lost that weight to 200 lbs then ballooned up to 225….then i decided something had to be done!  Lost my weight after just 1 year, down to 139!  Again awesome!   now here I am the weight creeping back on, I am here writiing as I now weigh 165 2 years after losing all the weight, I am in size 14 again, my biggest was 20…just 6 sizes away from that again, and I am distraught!  I love junk food that is my problem!  I have stayed away from beef, mayo, anything fattening out of my diet now, but when it comes to sweets, all bets are off! It is killing me!  I love junk!  I have been eatting BAGS of mints everyday!  Literally 3 bags of lifesaver mints! like a crack addict!  I must stop this! winter is coming, my pants aren’t gonna fit AGAIN!  this is ridiculous!  I guess if I start blogging again this will help!  It has helped before and I am sure it will help again!  So today I started off with 2 pieces of toast with strawberry jelly, and lets see where this leads me…..