sangeletic

Ok this is something new that I am struggling with….I have had a best friend for 12 years and now that I have lost weight she never talks to me, I call her she never returns my calls, and I miss our friendship.  I attribute this to my weight being a lot less than hers now, as we used to go out to eat and do yard sales, and eat afterwards, and watch movies, and eat afterwards, and go to the mall, and Eat….so now I am watching what I eat so, no more eatting parties….I miss this, but I am adjusting because I know you can’t eat everything yummy and maintain weight loss.  People say to me when are you going off of your diet? I say this is my NEW way of living, not so much a diet as people call it, but a change in what I eat now! I avoid beef, sodas, junk food, unless it is lowfat, fat free, or cookies on sunday at church….GOD takes the calories out of them when I eat them only on Sunday…..But anyways, now I have another friend who tells me she misses the FAT Angie, and this hurts, because I am the same person, just I can’t Eat everything bad, because Lets face it, I have done this too many times and I know if you cheat it will catch up with you.  How do people think you get smaller? thinner? magically? and that it is fun not being able to eat and enjoy sociallizing while eatting? Its not!!!  I wish I could eat free as I choose, I miss that, I love to eat! But I am no fool, I know what to do…but it gets lonely at the top when friends think you are thin so your no fun….Oh well I will lose one friend and keep trying to convince my other friend that I am not a different person, just smaller…  but it does stink that as you maintain weight control issues, other issues start to mount…why does everything have to be so complicated????