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ok..Diet, aggrevation, frustration, and getting back on track!Let me start off saying yesterday was the absolute worst day ever for my diet! It seems my stomach turned into a bottomless pitt, and I just kept trying to fill it!

I started off right, Had a bowl of honey bunches of oats with a half cup of milk….good choice-didn’t fill me up…then thats when the trouble began! I said I would munch on some of the kids trail mix, 6g of fat per serving…now I know better…that led to the whole bag 6 serbviongs gone in 5 minutes….What the heck I was so mad…so ok….I got past that waited hours until eatting anything else, had a chkn sandwich, made it on white bread, not sure why, really just an accident, but nonetheless extra calories, and fat….so then I snacked on a half a bag of marshmallows follwed by 7 special k bars, and as if that wasn’t enough, I made dinner and ate well, just disgusted by this time with my lack of will power! I had chkn breast, 1/2 cup noodles, brussel sprouts to punish myself, and a broccoli, carrots, and potatoes mix…That part wasn’t bad, I stole my daughters chocolate out of her hand out of chocolate desperation too! What has come over me! I am not even adding up these calories and fat grams for fear it would set me back, and I would continue on this downward spiral! I will tell you this…As of this morning I was 150.4….so since yesterday morning I gained 2 lbs! What in the world! Ok so I am back on track…I PRAY! I got on the treadmill this am for 15 minutes, and I am gonna set up a new rule for myself- anytime I get on the computer for anything, I MUST walk on the treadmill first for at least 10 minutes! Maybe this will work!

I just wanted to reach 150 nothing more, but you can’t hover around a number, so I choose to keep losing, to maintain, just go to like 143 I thought was a good plan, but it seems like I can’t go down any more, but I sure as heck don’t wanna go up, so for today its salad, and salad, and salad! I will chk in later with ya’ll! Have a great day, and don’t over indulge, its not worth it!

I know thats gonna be the first thing out of my hubby’s mouth tonight when he gets home from work…it was a dreary day, of course, when Its my day off its always dreary, or not so perfect…anyways, I took the kids and we went shopping! I went looking for a new pair of sneaks for work, the old ones are losing tread although the top part looks fresh and fine…so I went everywhere trying on shoes, the kids got aggrevated, and I realized hmmmm…I lost a shoe size too! I measured my foot, and couldn’t believe it…well you know if your body is fat logic tells you your foot is too, but really it was! So I got a new pair couldn’t decide on which one, went to another store got another one, returned it, went and bought the other pair I couldn’t decide on, and well wasted the whole day fooling around and shopping.  While at Sports Academy, I fell in love with this pair of Dickies slacks (capri’s) on clearance for 4.99, and then I loved them so much I had to buy the reg pants too in the dickies brand…they were not 4.99, they were 29.99….but they fit me good! Ok, so off to Kroger to waste away the remainder of my cash, lol, and what did I buy? None other than special K bars, now I just blogged this am about how I couldn’t buy them anymore! But there was a sale! Buy 4 boxes, and get a 24pk of water FREE! I am a sucker! I did it! And I immediately had to munch on one in the car, BUT just one thankfully! ( I couldn’t find the big-o-tits that were on sale there, lol…love that one ..I read the picture snapshot of someones blog!  I thought it would be worth a shot ude to the lack of lately!) Other than that I had a 1/2 of grilled chkn sandwich at Chick-fil-A …so I have done well, and this is my dinner…

……  grilled ckn breast with LOTS of steamed veggies! Wish I had enough to share buddies, but you can make it, it is easy, and healthy too! Have a great night buddies! Angie

ok I am pissed! It has been several weeks since Christmas, and I have really had no major weight loss! i am still eatting healthy, no pizza, no candy, no real junk to speak of, staying under 1500 calories each day, I am gonna have to cut back to 1200 again I can see! I saw the scale go down to 146.2 this week, but now it seems that it was comfortable at 148…so back up it went! This is so frustrating! it seems like as I was losing to hit my goal I could lose, but once I hit that magic number now the weight is staying put, and I can’t get not another lb off! this is making me mad…I am exercising, eatting right,, doing everything the same….maybe I should start weighing my food out again…I guess that may be a mistake I have had, and then you know at night…If I could curve my nighttime snacking I know I would do better….I tried to stop munching on the cocoa pebbles as much after last week I had a run in with 5 bowls of it! So ok, next week I better see at least a lb off! I am not kidding, I feel good, look good, finally, but I still want to lose a few more lbs, really around the tummy! So…dang it I knew I should have joined that kmart challenge! Ok buddies, I will I will I will lose at least 1lb next week! HOLD ME TO IT! WEigh in sat am…I will report! Angie

Diet log 1/18/08

Friday!
Day 175 wk 26

3 special k bars 300 calories/6 g

Lunch: 1/4 fottlong sub veggies only 115 calories/ 1.5g

2 bananas 200 calories /2g

1/2 oreo 100 calorie pk 50 calories /1.5g

panini healthy choice 310 /4.5g

8 french fries 75 /2.5g

reduced fat wheat thins 2 servings 32 crackers 260/8g

special k bar 100 cal/1.5g

yogurt 100 calories/og
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Daily total  1410 calories/26.5 fatg      
  Ok, whats the deal, getting higher in my fat grams now, those darn crackers did me in…lol…but I stayed low on my calories….i am not gonna buy any special k bars this week, they are a healthy snack but I am eatting too many of them!
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You let me by,  I’ll let you by, you let me by, I’ll let you by, this is a constant conversation my thighs have together, I have always always had big thighs, nothing I can ever do will change…. that nothing! Not even the thigh master, tried it! As a teenager, my mom called me Thunder thighs~It would make me so mad and get so angry… so that was what actually forced me to start my dieting process the first time! So this phrase you let me by, I’ll let you by is actually a saying me and my best friend made up one day! About being fat, and having big old thighs that constantly rub together, and hurt after having jeans on all day and walking, and  having the skin rub against the jeans continously! This is a painful experience it has been for a while, to have a friend of mine who also goes through the same thing, yet so stubborn to do a thing about it! Well now I have realized that hey! My thighs are not carrying on these annoying converstaions~or arguments!~ Anymore! This is awesome, I can autally walk and not have them rubbing, irritating each other, and the ointment does not have to follow…I still have big thighs in my opinion, and I always will, but hey they are being good now and staying under control and not causing me any stress, so I will deal with the not so model perfect thighs, and be happy with my new found smaller ones!

Ok, This is a disaster, i was trying to do too much stuff yesterday, and when i finally sat down, welllllll…….Thats basically when I felt like the shovel started moving the food into my mouth…..I watched a movie with my hubby and decided I didn’t want to log my food in my notebook, then said aw heck i’ll just do it tomorrow, and didn’t add up the totals or anything, and now that I just journalled last nights eats, well….I never should have skipped those steps yesterday….should have wrote down my foods, then i KNOW I never would have kept going and ate 2 grilled cheese sand, and PUDDING when I was full already! Ughhhh….so today I told myself I was gonna fast! For  the Hotrods weigh in, I want results! I want the hard work I have done this week to pay off, and to have some kinda progress….so You know a fasting is impossible…lol….but I did do good today and I did curve my eatting habits, and I ate 2 banana to boot….See I can eat the veggies, just not the fruit, weird huh! Well Good night buddies to you all, and good luck with your weekend weigh ins! Angie

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Diet log for 1/17/08
breakfast:
2 pks of grits 200 calories/2.5g

2 special k bars 200 calories/3.5g
lunch:
veggies sub (bread only)with garlic salt and butter spray

pasta fazzoli soup 315 calories/ 3.5g

pretzels  100 calories

dinner:

beans 1/2 cup ff  130 calories

soup 315 calories/3.5g

2 grilled cheese sand bread only 160 ff bread

cheese 120 ffree

snack:

whip cream fat free 25 calories

pudding made with skim milk 100 calories

100 cal pk oreo (1/2) 50 calories/1.5g

red grapefriut juice 130

Daily, I did well, ate sensibly, but ate too much! I should have journalled my food and not have been so lazy as to do it! 2045 calories/16.5fat grams

Yesterday I bought some pants from the goodwill with the tags still attached, and they were in my size! I couldn’t believe that first of all, usually the good deals are always in a different size than mine… Then I wore them to work Today, and someone commented I was wearing tight jeans at work to show off for the “men customers”….Lol…..I wasn’t even wearing jeans, they are slacks, but hey I am thinner now, A whole heck of a lot thinner, If I am gonna buy new clothes, which I am not gonna buy a lot anyways, but anyways… I am gonna buy ones that look good, and are cute on me! I am wanting to have things in my closet now that I like, not that I wear once in a while, and are for work only, or for only special evets, etc…I am getting clothes that fit, are cute, and are in my size! Not too tight, not too big, Just right! So…I am not gonna buy ugly clothes! Angie

Wednseday January 16th 08

Day 173 wk 26

Break fast:
2 pks of grits 200 calories/2g

Lunch:
Veggies steamed in seasoning 100 calories, seasoning 25 calories
orange 65 calories
special k bar 100 calories/1.5 g

Chkn fazzoli soup 315 calories/3.5g
grilled cheese sand. 80 calories (bread)
                     60 calories (cheese)

cocoa pebbles 240 calories/3g

2 puddings 200 calories
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Daily total  1380 calories/10 fatg

Ok for once in my life ….I don’t mind this….

so we got a new boss at work, another one! She is cool though, kinda boysterous, and crazy, but yet cool! She comes into work on Friday and tells everyone they look like they are playing basketball, and need to look more like they are at work…I AGREE! Everyone starts looking like slobs with their shirts intucked, me included…So as everyone was complaining, I tucked my shirt in, and WOW WEEE….My butt is no longer the size of Texas, starting to look more like Maryland! I was actually happy to tuck my shirt in when I went to work yesterday, this actually shows off mor curves! I can’t believe I like my shirt tucked in! And not to mention walking around looking at everyones round plump butt with their shirts tucked in makes me feel even more proud! Some of my co-workers tease and say no butt at all….butttt I like it that a way, I still have butt, just a smaller one! I wanna keep it that way too!