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but lately i feel as if I NEED more food! I have been doing so well, and yes the pictures show for my hard work, yet I feel like now I have got to eat so much! i know I will always have to watch my weight VERY VERY CLOSELY! I am an over eater by nature, I love the taste smell, and touch of food! I always have and I always will, I have now got to avoid my favorite cereal because it seems like every 2 days I am out of cereal again! maybe my problem is not getting enough water to drink! i know I need 2 liters a day but if I finish 1 now it seems like am doing good! ok so I am not eatting like the whole wide world up or anything, i am being very disciplined which I must or else I will gain every ounce back x2!

Today i ate 1/3rd of a turkey sub from subway at the mall, and a 1/2 of my sons third, with no meat which he ate!, and now the other 1/3rd…so not even the whole sub, but might as well consider it the whole thing, 1 and 1/4 cup of sherbert ffree, and 4 servings of ff chips! I don’t know why I even bought them! I wanted them so bad! But I din’t get the mayfield ice cream pint I wanted, and  I didn’t eat  the cupcakes I got for my kids! So all things considered I think I did ok, lets see:…sub…cal630…fat9g…sherbert …cal300…fat0g…chips…cal375…fat og total day…

cal 1305fat g9 …nope still over 1200 calories! Ughhh…the darn junk got me! Still I could eat more now! But I won’t.. I will stop now and cut my losses! I want to reach my goal, not get so darn close to it stick my tongue out at my goal and moon it, and turn the tables around and start to gain! I will not do it! I want to lose these last lbs for the new year new me strategy! I know I can do it, I just need to stop wanting the bad stuff, even though it is better than the fatty stuff I know I could be reaching for!