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Some people think that I am always so positive, that i never have down days! I have them too but why dwell on the negative! I try not to cause nothing positie can come from it…but today I am feeling like the world is rotating against me! It started yesterday, couldn’t hook up the brand new stereo, felt challenged, got angry and gave up, then my son says why is my ceiling leaking? I said huh? whatever, just to go take a peek and see it dripping through a pin hole of a massive bubble formed on his ceiling sure enough! My hubby cut a hole in it and darted off to work, while I was staring at it in disbelief! What the heck It hasn’t rained here in 3 mos, we have such a deficeit, and then the sky pours all this rain doen on my now leaky roof! What the heck, then the pinhole urned into a 3×5 area that collapsed everywhere I call my hubby he says “don’t worry about it, shut the door and don’t look in at it anymore!” HUH? My roof is leaking and the ceiling is falling and thats the good advice to calm me down? then I get up today I am rushing to go to work, my car is acting up, and I get to work to find out my new boss of 8 wks has just QUIT! What in the???? So is this what 2008 holds in store for me? disaster? NO WAY! I am not gonna stand for it! I am gonna get a good nights rest tonight, unplug my phone I have friends who will want to wish me happy 2008 at the stroke of midnight! And hope and pray that this is all gonna be a bad dream when I wake up tomorrow! I know if I stay away from the junk food at least I will be happier when the am arrives but it is hard to avoid the junk as comfort food when all hell wants to break loose! Ok I am calming down now….tomorrow is a new day! lol, make the best of it, and 2008 will be great! (I Just need to repeat that 1 million times now, then I will start to believe it! lol….) Happy New years buddies from the normally up beat buddy Angie! 

….I am going into 2008 as a healthy mom, a skinnier wife, and with a determined lifestyle change…This year will be the year I only buy what I intend to consume, I won’t buy anything I know is not allowed! I will be prettier, thinner, more active, and I will be proud of myself! I will shop for thin clothes, strive to maintain the weight loss that I have achieved and have a new-NEW YEARS resolution, not to lose all this weight, but to stay consistent and maintain this year! What an awesome start to the new year!  I hope you enjoy this new year! This year is a new year…new me!  Angie

I have been staying strong at held on to the goal position now for a few days….I got scared this morning and got on the scale only to see it give out an inaccurate reading, so I was almost late for work due to the constant scale fetish weigh in I have….I thought when it read 154 that I must have eatten more horrible than I thought…I stopped journalling my food.  So that was just a wake up call, I am staying strong at 150, and I hope to maintain that! (I plan to!)I am glad to have met my goal but with me I know that it is a forever lifestlye change I took on, and not to let my guard down for one minute!

I woke up Christmas Morning as excited as a little child in hopes that the scale would tilit in my favor and that I would be very close to my goal, because obviously it would have to be a miracle for me to reach my goal weight on Christmas morning! I did it! I did it! i reached my goal, on Christmas Morning!  The scale proudly displayed 150.0….not even 2 tenths of a lb more! exactly at 150! wow I am so siked now! I had an awesome Christmas as you can imagine, all happy inside, and glowing from the outside too! I know each and every one of us struggle with our weightloss on here, and each and every one of us can achieve our goals! We just have to try harder! Stay away from the junk, and do our personal best! I have done my best, I am hoping to continuosly drop my weight, until my body is happy where it is at, then It will plateu….My daughter got dance dance revolution for the ps2 and it really gives me a new kinda workout, so I am sure I will be fine, if I can stay away from the junk food! Thats my weakness! Thanks for all of your support, your buddy, Angie. 

This is the title of my diet journal today…..This is how long I have been committed to giving my diet my all…This is how I get through each and every day…I MUST hold myself accountable in each and every way every day.  See for me If I slip up I have to write it down at the end of the day and hold myself accountable, I have to hold myself accountable for my weekly totals! I try and eat healthy and lowfat, and stay on track.  When I knew I wanted to lose weight, I knew it would take my all to accomplish my goal, and why fool myself to say I was on a diet with out committing to it! I don’t want to set myself up for failure, so I didn’t start my diet until I was 1000% ready for the tasks I set forth for myself, and now I have an awesome gift for myself this holiday season, A skinnier me! The new scale I bought today-(I am a fanatic about weighing myself, I have bought 3 scales now, and thats in addition to the regular scale that I had….And now I am on scale #3…finally I found one that will remember my last recorded weight, present weight, bmi, and over weight/healthy/obese/underwieght categories)anyways the new scale I bought today says that I was 153.2 tonight, and thats why I bought the new one, the old new one was 2lbs off (not in my favor) and I was sure of it, but I stuck with it for a while to make sure, lol, but the new one says 153.2 for nighttime weight, so I am very excited about my morning weight because My goal weight is 150, and how nice would that be to accomplish my goal by the Morning of CHRISTMAS!  5 mos. is not a long time to lose almost 70 lbs but I have given up a lot! I gave up ALL red meat, ate pork only  4 times since July, ate only chkn, fish, and shrimp nightly, no sodas anymore, diet or regular, no junk food, unless it has under 5g of fat per serving, I have eliminated all pasta, rice dishes beyond 1/2 cup 3x’s a week, I have taken up a love for veggies, and I have driven myself only to the taste of water entering my mouth.  Flavored water it is, but hey I must have some luxury, and its ff, 0 calories!  So my hubby asks me last night what am I gonna do once I hit my goal weight? Uh I said well, I am going to continue to eat as I am now, and stay healthy, I get this a lot, people say stop losing weight, but how can I stop when I am just eatting lowfat, and watching my calories, I GET FULL every day! I have trained my body to eat less, and if I begin to gorge myself, as I have in the past I know the lbs will return so This is what I have to do now.  Will I stop at 150 probably not, I have averaged about 2lbs a week loss, so I assume I will stay up with that until my body reaches a plateu…and hey if 1 piece of pizza hits my mouth I know how to stay on track the rest of the week, so I will do just fine!…Thanks for listening to me rave tonight, love my BS buddies! Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays to all of you!

Lots of Love Angie

 
Life is all about   BUTTS

you’re either covering it,
laughing it off,
kicking it,
kissing it,
busting it,
trying to get a piece of it,
or behaving like one ……  

Seems like all I do is Bust my Butt to lose weight….I am sure you all can relate!

I just wanted to send some christmas humor out to liven up the holidays!

Not much has been going on here, I have been busy this week, we went to look at the christmas lights in the south but with 70 degree weather it really doesn’t feel like Christmas! This week coming up is due to be cooler….I just hope that doesn’t mean that I feel the need for soups and comfort foods! I have been doing pretty well diet wise, I hope that I can continue the willpower throughout the holidays! Tonight I got into the tootsies left from halloween, funny how I waited and avoided the chocolates, now I am wanting the tootsie rolls left over! Well I guess it is better than cookies! I told my kids to hide the candies now, I bet i will regret that rather sooner than later! My 4 yr old will be bouncing off the walls tomorrow am I am sure of it! Well Night to all….Angie

(Enjoy your weekend! eat right, and squeeze in some exercise!)

Today was an awesome day for me to put this shirt on! I walked in the door from work this afternoon, tired, and grouchy (from being at work all day!) and my hubby says oh i forgot to tell you I am mad at you! I didn’t even get 2 feet in the door before I started to get jumped on! then he led me to the bathroom and told me how the toilet had continuosly ran for a half an hour while he was thrashing all of my clean towels all over the floor to sop up the uncontrollable amounts of water spewing from the comode! (Stop laughing…I had to clean up this crap! ) I was like what the heck happened! He said well the toilet was overflowing, and I couldn’t get it to stop, and I finally figured out the problem was the toilet deodorizer YOU put on there some time ago! Well honestly i don’t remember doing this, but I am known to keep my house clean myself, so I really can’t imagine HIM doing this! So I denied it for arguments sake, and he continued to yell at me, and I was about to slug him in the head, but instead I focussed all of my attention on getting the mess up! So I said what is this mess in the tub, poop? He said no potporri! Wonder who put that behind the toilet in that cute bowl! Well I am guilty! I like my toilet area to smell, good, and not like a toilet! So at least it wasn’t poop my stomach wasn’t up for that! So i get all the messy towels up, and place everything back in its own place…ie. toilet plunger, ajax, toilet bowl brush, bleach etc….. and get the wet towels out of the bathroom and I am headed out the door to go to put the stuff in the laundry room to wash, and he continues being a butt head hollering just #1, and #2..and #3 go in the toliet! Not flushable wipes, not hair, not deodorizers, not anything else! By this time I was about to SHOVE him down the toliet and hope it gets clogged up so That I wouldn’t have to deal with his #$%&^! Ok so He rants and raves on and on for 35 miutes, the most unbearable 35 minutes of my life I swear! Once he got in the shower, my son started attacking me for food, and munchies, so I left! I get up and go to the store in search for COCOA PEBBLES! I can’t take it! It is much better than junk food at least! I scour the stores shelfs, get the last box and return home to see he had left for work! Well thank god! I was beginnning to worry that ww3 was about to take place! I ate my 2 bowls of cereal and now I am feeling much more content! BUT I was trying not to buy any ccpebbles this week! UGHHHH…….Anyways, I have been getting in my water, but I am feeling so tired from work!, so I haven’t done any extra activities! At least I am eatting sensibly! Take care my buddies, and if your hubby gets on your nerves, I will loan you my new shirt for a day-remember it says “ Save the drama for your Mama!”   So true sometimes! cause mama’s always listen but I don’t have to!  (BTW TOM IS COMING OVER REALLY SOON!) Lol…..maybe thats why I was so aggrevated too!

but lately i feel as if I NEED more food! I have been doing so well, and yes the pictures show for my hard work, yet I feel like now I have got to eat so much! i know I will always have to watch my weight VERY VERY CLOSELY! I am an over eater by nature, I love the taste smell, and touch of food! I always have and I always will, I have now got to avoid my favorite cereal because it seems like every 2 days I am out of cereal again! maybe my problem is not getting enough water to drink! i know I need 2 liters a day but if I finish 1 now it seems like am doing good! ok so I am not eatting like the whole wide world up or anything, i am being very disciplined which I must or else I will gain every ounce back x2!

Today i ate 1/3rd of a turkey sub from subway at the mall, and a 1/2 of my sons third, with no meat which he ate!, and now the other 1/3rd…so not even the whole sub, but might as well consider it the whole thing, 1 and 1/4 cup of sherbert ffree, and 4 servings of ff chips! I don’t know why I even bought them! I wanted them so bad! But I din’t get the mayfield ice cream pint I wanted, and  I didn’t eat  the cupcakes I got for my kids! So all things considered I think I did ok, lets see:…sub…cal630…fat9g…sherbert …cal300…fat0g…chips…cal375…fat og total day…

cal 1305fat g9 …nope still over 1200 calories! Ughhh…the darn junk got me! Still I could eat more now! But I won’t.. I will stop now and cut my losses! I want to reach my goal, not get so darn close to it stick my tongue out at my goal and moon it, and turn the tables around and start to gain! I will not do it! I want to lose these last lbs for the new year new me strategy! I know I can do it, I just need to stop wanting the bad stuff, even though it is better than the fatty stuff I know I could be reaching for!

HELP I HAVE FALLEN INTO A RUT AND I CAN’T GET UP!

OK SO I HAVEN’T MADE DINNER WHICH CONSISTS OF VEGGIES, OR A MEAT EVEN IN OVER A WEEK.  I KNOW THAT IS MY PROBLEM.  I WANT TO EAT JUNK FOOD! MY BODY IS CRAVING THE SUGAR AND SWEET STARCHES.  I HAVE BEEN MAKING FAIRLY DECENT CHOICES (CEREAL WITH NO MILK FOR DINNER- 3 BOWLS!) LOWFAT CEREAL, BUT I HAVE BEEN SKIPPING DINNER TO CUT THE CALORIES.  NOW I KNOW IF I WAS TO EAT MY VEGGIES, AND MY CHKN FOR PROTEIN THAT I WOULD WANT LOTS LESS OF THE SUGGARRRY CEREAL AND THAT WOULD BE BETTER FOR ME, ALSO I BOUGHT A WHOLE BOX OF CAPTAIN CRUNCH P-NUT BUTTER AND ATE THE WHOLE THING IN 24 HRS. SO NOW I KNOW I CAN’T BUY THAT AGAIN, HEY ITS NOT TOO BAD FOR YOU AS ARE OTHER THINGS IF YOU CAN EAT THEM IN MODERATION! THE PROBLEM IS WHEN PEOPLE TELL ME THINGS, IE. YOU LOOK GREAT YOU NEED TO STOP LOSING WEIGHT. ETC. I TAKE THEM TO HEART AND FEEL AS IF I CAN EAT AND EAT AND EAT! WHICH I KNOW IS WRONG AND THAT IS WHAT GOT ME INTO THIS MESS TO BEGIN WITH.  I HAVE DONE SO WELL, AND HAVE FOLLOWED MY OWN ADVICE AND DIET PLAN AND NOW I AM LETTING GO?…AND FOR WHAT? TO GAIN IT ALL BACK/ NOW I AM NOT LETTING GO BY ANY MEANS, I HAVE HAD NO RED MEAT IN MONTHS, AND I WAS VERY DISCIPLINED AT HALLOWEEN, BUT THE TOOTSIE ROLLS HAVE BEEN CALLING ME, THE SUGAR IS THE PROBLEM…..IT IS LIKE ALL OF A SUDDEN I FEEL THE NEED TO MUNCH.  IF I ATE MY DINNER AT NIGHT I KNOW I WOULD NOT FEEL THIS WAY.  AND NOT ONLY THAT BUT THE MORE I EAT THE MORE I WANT RECENTLY IT SEEMS, I AM NEVER GONNA REACH MY GOAL THIS WAY! I AM SO CLOSE YET I AM MY TOUGHEST CRITIC, AND I GIVE IN TO MY EVIL SUBCONSCIEN THAT SAYS AW COME ON SUGARRY CEREAL CAN’T HURT….BUT I KNOW DARN WELL IT CAN! I NEED TO GET MY BUTT BACK ON THAT TREADMILL TOO AND STOP MAKING EXCUSES! SO I HAVE FALLEN AND I NEED SOME HELP BACK UP! ANYBODY GOT ANY SUGGESTIONS? ANGIE