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Ok so now it is day 3 with no diet pills, and at first the diet pills made me feel hazy, then I tried to stop them before, and I felt very tired, and had an extreme lack of energy.  So then I went to a half of a capsule which was really yucky, capsules…..then now I have stopped evn though I have enough for a few more weeks.  I might as well quit cold turkey…So I am doing great on my diet, I don’t even feel like the diet pills were helping with my diet, but instead giving me energy.  So Sat I had no pill and since then none either.  sat was a great day on my diet, and so was yesterday no troubles there in that dept.  I am pretty disciplined on my diet.  Today also has been good for the diet, just like I said a lack of energy!  I was busy as a bee on Sat., slept most of sunday, then slept late today too!  The sleepyness will wear off ( I hope).  Well it has to because tomorrow is back to the grindstone for me at work sooooo….now or never.  I need to finish up some house work which I haven’t even wanted to do that either! Usually with me its NOW I MUST DO IT NOW!  But lately its like aw whenever! Lol….I am sure this will pass, I just don’t wanna have to start drinking soda’s again for the boost I feel I need!  I used to drink about 100 oz. of soda’s a day no joke!  So Ok well I can do it, just must stay focussed and mmm maybe pop some asprin for this headache! lol….Chow!   Angie  

Well this has been an unusual week!  The week seemed to drag on yet I couldn’t wait for the weekend to arrive.  I had a long week at work, busy busy busy!  I had to put in long hours this week too!  Hince one of the reasons I didn’t blog quite so much this week!  I lost 2 more pounds, I was actually amazed…didn’t expect that so much…I have been eating right htough and working harder at work so maybe thats why.  I did not have too much bread this week, and ate my yogurt.  I swear they are right when they say yogurt will speed up your weight loss!  Or milk products actually!  I have been trying to add in at least 1 or 2 yogurts a day.  I have been dieting now for 3 months and almost hit the 50 lb mark…it seems like a lot in 3 months to some people but to me it just shows my determination and strong will power that I have maintained.  Now since I have been dieting I have had no real JUNK!  I talk to some people who splurge a little bit every day, and this is not how I achieved my weight loss thus far….See I have came to the realization that I am a FAT girl!  Now no matter If I stay fat, or if I continue to lose the weight to get to my goal I beleive, and I really really do believe this- that i will be always a fat girl, just maybe trapped in a thinner body!  I know that I can not set limits for myself!  I love to eat.  I now have to eat things that are readilly available, not go out of my way, drive in my car, and buy junk!  I will not allow myself to buy JUNK because ugh well You know I will eat it!  If I no longer have it, I can’t eat it right!  WRONG…my husband has stopped drinking since I started my diet, and thats another reason why I started dietting, if he can quit drinking alcohol as much as he was every day then I know I can lose this weight, his stopping drinking= my dietting plan!  So far though since he has stopped drinking he developed this insatiable craving for candy! All chocolate too!  So now instead of me buying the junk he does! And it winds up in my house still!  Now this sucks, but so far I haven’t dove into his so called secret stash which seems to be wiggling out of hidding more and more each day!  He just piles the stuff up now so I can see it and want it yet not eat it!  I really don’t think he understands how much it bothers me, even though when he starts chomping on it I then leave the room and walk off mumbling and grouchy!  I mean for real I would not turn up a pint bottle in front of him!  That is so rude if I did.  But he just doesn’t tend to think of things like that for me!  So ….Also I am worried because my doctor has taken me off of my diet pill now, because he only prescribes it for 2-3 months ever and he says I am fine now and that If I continue to eat right and excersise then I will still lose the weight.I am worried that the pounds will gradually work their way back up!   No doubt in my mind with the calories I am consuming now, I can lose weight on my own, but I do worry about my energy level!  And I stopped drinking sodas altogether once I started dieting too, whats gonna give me my energy boost..I had to lay off of the caffiene, so now I am worried that I will be slower and less productive now, and more grouchy too…see this is what happens If I don’t take it for several days.  Ok well I hope that I didn’t bore you, and that I didn’t ramble on and on too much…I will try to blog more often this up coming week too!  Angie

Ah at last I am eating my hot dogs, well a lower fat version at least…lol…I pulled a Sharky….Tonight we had vegetarian baked beans, and I was still craving the weekend hot dogs from Saturday, so I finally had to give in and break down!  I boiled 2 of the oscar mayer fat free hot dogs and they were mmm…ok….Not all of what I wanted in a real hot dog, but hey for the substitution I guess it was ok…Just that darn Saturday thing with all the free hot dogs surrounding me was starting to get to me!  Ok so now I can say that I had my hot dog and ate it too! Lol…Hot dog cravings are gone now.  Other than that all is well here, just excited to weigh in as usuall!  I am stuck with this measly 2 lb weight loss, and I am starting to get aggrevated when people say when are you going “off of your diet”?  Well folks if youv’e ever been fat and unhappy, then when you finally do decide that it is time to make a change, I don’t think you ever go “off of your diet”!  It is just a new way of living for me…I need to eat less calories and lower in fat to keep my body functioning properly, and working…lol…A lot of people have been noticing my weight loss now, and when I tell them I have 27 more pounds to go, they think I am joking…Ok so I am looking better but great day guys, I gained well over 70 lbs since I got pregnant with my son so I know what I look like thinner, and how much better I felt so thats what I am aiming for a healthier me, not so much a skinnier me, although I do like the ring of that!, but really a healthier more energetic me!  I know I can do this, I have came this far and I am not going to stop yet!

I am disappointed in the amount of HOT ROD no shows this week!  I know we can do it, at the rate our team loses weight, if we had everyone weigh in we would be on top!  I think even if you didn’t lose the pounds you had hoped for, still weigh in, and that will give you even that much more of an incentive to try harder next week, and to stay on track!  Any ways, I am sure one of the other teams won, we can’t win if all of us don’t weigh in….This is just disappointing….Hey maybe they could do some thing like a percentage, 8 people weigh in a total of 80 pounds loss, 10 pounds each person, as opposed to the other team having 15 people weighing in with a 82 pound loss total, for a percentage of 5.46 pounds each lost….hmm maybe that would be all the incentive we need…. so that us who do weigh in can still see the results!  HHHHmmmm just maybe!  Oh and for the hot rods who did weigh in GREAT  JOB!!!!  OUR DETERMINATION WILL MAKE US A BETTER PERSON!  AT LEAST A BETTER LOOKING PERSON! lol…..

Ok so this is my favorite time of the year, It begins to cool down I can go look at Yadr sales and not get too overheated, and FALL festivals galore!  I love to take the kids out in the fall and just fool around at fall festivals with them!  Entertainment and virtually no work on my behalf! Awesome!  So today was a very very trying day!  I woke up early, left the house by 8 am headed in the direction of the LARGEST garage sale of the year!  I found myself looking and searching for bargains galore while the yummy smell of hot dogs were grilling at the crack of dawn, Ok so I had a half of a banana and I was content with that until the aromas started to linger all around!  No matter which direction I turned the wind was blowing hot dog scents my way!  I just kept telling myself well, they are probably a buck or two each then buying one for everyone would set me back about 6 dollars! SO… Ok…huh… so I managed to skip the hot dog area all together then I walked inside to find the place smelling like a bakery store!  I LOVE PASTRIES!  I could not resist!  BUT I did!  I left 3 hours later and very proud of myself.  My son was begging for the dag-on treats and goodies so I pulled out a poptart in reserve and that semmed to appease him.  Left and went to pick up my Angel food package.  (now for those of you who are wondering what is angel food, you are missing out!…CK OUT WWW.Angelfoodministries.com and see what thats all about!) I got the desert and mmmm I wanted some of that too!  Nah I held strong!  Then we went to a church Yardsale where they were selling BOXED KRISPY KREME doughnuts!  Ughhh GOSH IS THE FOOD FOLLOWING ME?  I politely told the lady I was on a diet and she said ahhh one won’t hurt!  UH YES IT WILL!!!! I won’t stop at one so I drifted as far away from that as I could!  Then my son spots FIRE SAFETY DAY!!!OOOHHH OHHHH CAN WE GO PLEASE I WILL BE HAPPY!!!! So I was a bit reluctant but finally I said ok, cause he was being patient with all the running around I was doing with him in tow!  So we got inside the firehouse and well lah ti da, guess what?  FREE HOTDOGS AND SODA, AND YES CUPCAKES!  Ah crap what the heck  FREE thats how I avioded the earlier ones!  So I sat and watchwed as the kids gobbled up their yummies!  I was ready to give in I tell ya!  BUT I DIDN’T!  I did however rush straight home to make myself a sandwich and a pickle for the temptations!   NOW the story doesn’t end here, no that would be too easy, I had promised to take my kids to TRUNK OR TREAT which is a knock off of trick or treat where the kids go from car trunk to car trunk to get candy, FREE candy!  lol….I was fine with that and they played games and all, and then the smell of freshly poppped pocorn was in the air!  My kids each got a bag, then a soda, and well heck you know what was next!  HOTDOGS!!!! UGHHHHH……I get them theirs, and the lady says oh you can have one too, do you want chilli and onions too my dear?  NO THANKYOU I said POLITELY while gritting my teeth… Now why all the hot dog fuss? Because it is fall and everyone wants to squeeze that one last hot dog roast in before it gets too cold!  The kids ate candy all the way home!  I did have a small tootsie roll and my daughter managed to dig out some gummy bears for me too, fat free at least!…She is the sweet one!  I stopped off at one last stop, where I knew no hotdogs would be and I grabbed myself a ftlong sub, and cut it in thirds took my hubby 2/3’s of it and I can home and I ate the rest!  I was pretending secretly that it was a hot dog!  Actually I even considered dousing it with KETCHUP! LOL…But I didn’t….Ok so How am I gonna get through this season?  With all this temptation?  Well with the help from you all!  AVIOD THE TEMPTATION, I DID SO CAN YOU!…..Smaller clothes helps to motivate me too, and I was wearing my “skinny jeans from Years, and Years ago today! 

Ok, so it finally got cool here now…We had a high of 92 on Wednesday, and Thursday finally started off cool…So I sent my kids to school in shorts, and I asked my daughter how warm it was supposed to get because it was cold!,and she told me 92… And I came back from dropping them off to discover the actual high was only due to reach 77!  Ok so I felt awful letting my kids freeze in the am hours because I thought it was gonna get warm!  Anyways I came home to start rummaging through my work pants and you see I haven’t worn pants to work in over 6 mos. It is so warm here, shorts are a staple…So I began to trash my closet in search of some pants suitable fior work that wouldn’t fall to the floor as I walked!  Well I couldn’t find much, I did find a pair of Capri’s I had bought a few weeks prior because they were on Clearance and they only were like 3 bucks!  I bought them too small though in hopes of reaching that goal, and wala it worked!  I never buy clothes now unless I buy a size smaller than what I am in so that If I keep on losing weight, then I will have some stuff fit me!  So Today rolls around and I have the same problem, just a different day!  NO pants to fit!  Now this is actually a great thing- going from 18w-20 to a 12 now!  I can’t possibly be too upset because I am excited to be in smaller clothes and yes Maybe I don’t have anything to wear but hey, that means I get to go shopping!  Yahoo!  Anyways I have discovered that since I have no pants I MUST go and get at least 3 pairs for work now(since I only wear black or tan to work 3 will do) and then I can look awesome!  It is other things too but you can get away with big t-shirts and bigger jackets, but pants are very noticable when they are too big! So I wore a pair of “SKINNY” capri’s today, and my legs were a bit cold because it was only 42*F this am….But boy I got a LOT of comments! At least 4 people I knew today commented and wanted to know how much weight I have lost now… Going from a chunky overweight “fat” mom to having a cute skinny face slightly overweight, and headed straight for the diva lane!  Shoot before too long you won’t be able to even tell me anything, I will be so FLY!  Lol….Ok so you can see that I am radiating energy from this natural high I am on…..AND I weighed in this morning and another 2lbs down….See I am stuck at a 2lb weight loss each week, but hey I am happy with two pounds a week!  That will put me at less than 15 more weeks of being away from my goal weight!  Hey I can live with that!  A new years gift to myself!   

HOT RODS DON’T FORGET TO WEIGH IN!

Ok,  so I was sooo siked about losing the weight on Friday-Nothing could hold me back!  I went to work all excited and kapow every one was acting as if they were the laziest *&**’s in the world, Ok so I picked up the slack and figured I would do it all my dam self! Must lose weight that way, at least! Huh well I was bushed tired as can be, came home and my daughter was all excited about going downtown and walking the beat!  We go every friday in the beginning of the month downtown and walk walk walk, partially for the exercise, partially for the sight seeing…Lord know I got my walking in that day!!! So I wasn’t even home from 8am to 9:30 pm…Tired as can be went to bed late, got up Sat. weighed in on the computer for my team, and basically just lazed around the house, got moving finally about 1pm and went to a health fair..After all if they are gonna have these free health expo’s I might as well take advantage of it!  Got my BP checked (normal) got my glucose checked (normal)actually low, got my cholesterol chkd (didn’t realize they were to take a huge vial of blodd out until well after the lady stuck me and said if your queesy look the other way!  I did and when I looked back I saw all that blood of mine that was no longer mine!  Then she smiles and says you’ll have a little discomfort and we will mail you the results…Well dang due to no butter, moderate salt, no fried foods now, and anything that I used to eat being cut out I KNEW MY CHOLESTEROL WOULD BE NORMAL TOO! What the heck did I put myself through that for? Ok so Then I got my height and weight checked..the woman politely says after she weighed me “you need to watch it because you are entering the obese zone”…I in turn corrected her and let her know that NO I AM EXITTING THE OBESE ZONE!  A few more pounds and I will actually be with in the “NORMAL” levels for my height….Normal, I mean who determines what is normal and what is not?  Lol…Anyways that number has been the lowest I have been weighed in quite some time so yes I was HAPPY with it and I had to defend my own honor!  So fooled around did some errands, stayed up til 2am with the kids, and so of course was lazy as crap Sunday!  I got up to early lazed around and today was actually no better!  I did drink the water for my teams sake but it is like my legs have gone stiff on me….Oh well back to work tomorrow so I know they have to limber up if I am gonna be standing on them for 8 hours!  No more lazy me…..( But hey I ate good all weekend, and I keep a food journal, and for my weekly avg’s My daily calorie intake was 899 calories, and for my daily Fat gram intake it was I believe the lowest ever….5.64 g avg…..So Watch out I know I am gonna lose sound poundage this week!I will put a new picture up on Friday!)  Til then…..

Ok so Kim sent me an offer to join the HOT RODS!  I thought this would be a really great idea because of course it would be to motivate me to lose weight.  I was beginning to feel like wow this sucks I am going to let the team down this week maybe they won’t want me on there team if I can’t do this! Ughhhh wellllllll lo an dbehold I was way too excited about this weeks weigh in that I had to rush to my friends house early this am…in my pj’s…(she has a digital scale) and weigh myself….I weighed earlier in the week (wednesday) and I was dissapointed but I hung in there, and I dunno It paid off!  Total weight loss this week 3lbs…  Go Hot rods! We are #1!  You CAN count on me!  And wow It feels good! I am glad I hung in there (although to ask anyone in my house they would say it was hell living with me this week with my mood swings and anxiety about the pounds not coming off!)  So I am sticking with it!  Giving it my all! And supporting my buddies and Hot Rods! 

I am upset!

I am upset because I have been dietting for a few months now and at first the weight was just flying off now…wham! I am at a stand still…Ok I am happy with a 2lb loss each week after all I now eat little to no bread at all…even though I bake bread at work everyday like crazy, and now no chocolate, candy, anything that resembles that it has more than 3g of fat in it!  My calories have maintained at just under 1000 a day soooo…now this week I only lose 1lb barely!  Ughh this is very frustrating….while sitting here watching everyone gorge on all this yummy stuff!  I kno I know I have to be patient but it is hard!  I want results!  I am tired of being patient!  Ok I am done ranting now!  This is the start of a new week!  Actually I normally weigh in on Saturdays but last Sat I wasn’t happy with my results so I waited til wednesday for better ones, and ughhhh……